But me, I was so lonely that night

I was the loneliest man in the world that night. What’s more, I had fled the house to stop myself from ending it all. In the dead of night, as I was walking down the street lost in thought, a young woman kissed me. I couldn't run away. I didn't even know how to react. After that kiss, my life was never the same again. If you want clues as to what I went through: a midnight bar, a strip club, a bit of burlesque, and a bit of chaos... Nothing beautiful ever happens during the day. Abigail says what I'm experiencing isn't loneliness, but alienation. I don't know the difference; just as there are many things I do not know. What I mean to say is, this is a book about loneliness. It is the story of not being able to feel anything else, driven off the rails.